It's been a minute, but hello! I am back.
Or at least, I'm crawling out of my little blogging cave, squinting at the
sunlight, wondering if I still know how to string words together. I have
missed this – writing, rambling about life's little things, and catching
up with my online friends. It feels like coming home after being away for too
long.
Life has been... a little chaotic, to say the least.
Since February, this blog has been lingering quietly at the back of my mind,
like a book you're not quite ready to finish yet. I would log in now and then,
but I wasn't in the headspace to write. Every time I tried, the words would
just... stay quiet. I guess my heart wasn't ready to come back here, not yet.
You see, everything felt like it fell apart when
my cat passed away in January. He fought hard, but cancer is cruel. Losing him was like losing a piece of
my everyday life. After that, nothing felt right. It's strange how quiet a
home can feel without the sound of tiny paws.
Time didn't wait, though. I blinked, and suddenly it's August. The first few
months of the year hit me like a tidal wave – one thing after another, piling
up faster than I could process. There are things life has thrown at me that
I'm not ready to talk about just yet, but I know someday I will. For now,
let's just say... I'm expecting something unexpected. Something so special
that it still feels surreal to me.
Amidst all the heaviness, we decided to renovate the house. Yep, with all the
sadness clouding over us, we thought why not change the scenery a little?
Maybe it's a bit cliché, but I believe a new space brings new energy. Right
now, we're working on expanding the kitchen (because snacks deserve more
space, obviously), fixing up the backyard, building a little store room, and
even adding a guest room downstairs. Everything is still a work in progress,
but it feels good to see things slowly coming together. I can't wait to show
you once it's done and I promise it'll be before 2027. Haha.
As for work, I have hit pause on my writing jobs completely. My brain and
heart just couldn't sync up, and forcing it didn't feel right. I know I will
return to it eventually, but for now, my
small business
has been my quiet little focus. I have been taking lots of breaks whenever I
need to (because burnout isn't cute), and just taking everything slow and
steady. Healing isn't a race, right?
These days, my routine is simple. Resting. Healing. Feeding the stray cats and
dogs in the neighborhood. Watching movies I have seen a hundred times.
Spending more time with family. I have promised myself no unnecessary stress
for the rest of the year. Life's already throwing enough plot twists, I don't
need to add more to the script.
If you have read this far, thank you. Truly. Every comment, every silent
reader who stumbles upon my ramblings – you mean more to me than you know. I
might not reply right away, but I read every single word you leave behind. And
if it's not too much to ask, keep me in your prayers. I'm about to step into a
huge life shift, and I could use all the good energy coming my way.
Till then, I will be here, slowly but surely finding my way back to my baby
blog.
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ReplyDeleteHi, Lenne…
ReplyDeleteI read every single word of this post — and trust me, I did it slowly, just so I could truly feel what it was trying to convey.
This isn’t my first visit, but I used to be a silent reader, even though you left comments on my posts. I didn’t reply, though. I was happy to receive them, but I tend to get awkward when someone new tries to approach me — even if it’s just through a blog post.
To be honest, I’m not even sure how to respond to your writing right now, but I can feel the sadness of losing a precious fur baby. I also sense the courage it takes to get through the breakdown, just so you can stand back up again.
No matter what, I truly wish that things will get better for you and your family.